Family

I'm starting this new year's blogging with a more reflective one...Let me talk a little bit about my family today as i am missing some of them...

Yeah, a nuclear family of 5 that has grown to 6, 7, 8 and now 10, inclusive of my 2 sisters-in-law, my baby nephew, my dear ff and Auntie Monica (mom of sis-in-law 1)....and it's not going to stop there i guess....with ff''s folks being chummy with "all the other parents", haha....and not forgetting all the other significant siblings, etc etc

Looking back at 2005, i thought it's darn cool that ALL of us had lunched together on Christmas Day. Yeah, it was a luncheon for 15 of us in all, woah! As the crowd gets bigger each year, so does the number of pressies, haha!

Well, i'm now all alone in my flat + babysitting bro kb's flat as well - bro kb, jo and baby zac have left for the states with my folks in tow to help them out for a couple of months. It has sorta hit me that despite the beauty / convenience of all the furnishings and gadgets in a flat, it's but an empty shell without its inhabitants, or rather, the warmth and love that permeates when the people are around.

Bro kb's place is just not the same without zac's chuckling, drooling, playpen, toys and cries. I could still catch a slight whiff of that lingering baby / milky smell when i first went there the other day. It's gone now. The baby chair's bare. It's just not the same without bro and jo as well. No one offering us ice-cream and chocolates. No one patting me on my head or trying to strangle me.

It had been such joy for our family - especially with baby zac added - i will miss the outings we had to the esplanade, east coast, etc etc. It was simply cool - picture this: grandparents, parents and baby and the rest of us sharing a chocolate fondue! That was heaps fun but wouldn't be repeated for the next 18 months until bro's done with his postgrad.

Hmmmmm,i am beginning to miss my folks' nagging now that they aren't around as well.This chinese new year's the first in all my living years that i'll hafta spend without my immediate family. How lonesome...well, actually not exactly since i'll be travelling with ff's family....but, it's just not the same without my own family.

Oh well, i'm not making much sense out of this empty shell, am i? I guess i'm just kinda sad, especially so since i have been to the airport's departure hall twice within 9 days to send off people close to my heart. Yeah, i finally got to hug bro after yearsss of not having done so somehow (maybe 'cos he was always trying to strangle me?) and no words could describe how i felt when jo patted me on my head before she left last night - considering how i had been to her when she first got introduced to our family yearsss ago. I thank God for each of them, for blessing me with this family. I can always find another flat if i dislike it, but i'll never find another family that's truly family.